a l r i ght
when you’re asleep do you dream at night?
when you close your eyes do you feel alright?


part 1 (about me)


september i’m asleep on an air mattress
a chrysalis forms inside my head
at about 7 my mom comes to wake me up for dinner
but i’m pretty sure i’m dead
nothing she says gets into my head
her words fall flat on the former hardwood floor
but it’s still enough for me to know something’s going on
so i gather my fears and walk out of my door

later that week in a social studies class
i am sitting on the verge of tears
my eyes about to burst, colors flying everywhere
i’ve been exposed in front of my peers
but maybe it’s alright i can pull it all together
forgetting a bit of myself along the way
i can get home tell myself that i’m fine
and then i’ll throw every last bit of who i am inside

these friends aren’t real they don’t know me
but oh it’s such a steal to get this all for free

when you go to sleep do you dream at night?
when you close your eyes do you feel alright?

i could leave this all behind
tell myself that i'll be fine
this never happened never happened

october comes so fast and it hits me like a truck
oh i feel so alone, sitting in my home on halloween
but god fuck paul mccartney i don’t want to let it be
i want answers to my problems and i want drugs and i want money


part 2 (about a friend)


you spend novemeber on a porch with your corpse on public display
so i try to hand a torch to help you burn all your problems away
and though the smell of burning flesh i have never been much accustomed to
i can brave it through if it means i’ll getta t t t talk to you

when you go to sleep do you dream at night?
when you close your eyes do you feel alright?

can you throw me a line can you tell me the time?
i know it’s december but nothing else feels right
and if you won’t talk to me can you try to be
at least a little little little bit healthy


part 3 (about ?)


wondering
where it’s all gone
where did it snake off to
after when i last talked to you

i’m laying
on a bathroom floor
hoping for someday more
while the worms eat into my brain

where did you go?
i wanna wanna crawl over to you
but i can’t bring myself to feel these things

and you don’t seem to know
there’s not even water under our bridge
just a dry bed and
all the birds around have lost their wings

and you’re not wondering
where it’s all gone
‘cause nothing really left for you
it’s all the same am i insane?

i’m laying on a bathroom floor
hoping for someday more
while the worms eat into my brain

but why do i feel numb
i wanna wanna pull the trigger on a gun
this was supposed to have hurt me more
but i just don’t care
i’m filled to the brim with apathy
i’m not me i’m not me anymore

away from home
walking down new streets
cover up cover up
no you don’t see me


part 4 (about nothing)


when you go to sleep do you dream at night
when you close your eyes do you feel alright?

and in the end
you’ll text me again
it’s alright
it’s alright i love you