is it me or are those eyes mine?
am i egocentric will i ever be satisfied?
do the words i write have enough meaning to be writing?
should i just go paint or fix the lighting in my room?
it’s fucked up from the move

you finished the portrait you said you would do
it looks fucking great, he looks just like you
i’ll keep making my songs you keep being strong
oh god, i hope you’re doing better now

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of a future filled with pain and loathing
it’s gonna make me lose composure
god i hope i find some closure soon

do you charge enough?
i feel like you deserve more
was i ever enough?
i feel like you deserved more
was it just for you or was it for them too?

fuck, i hope they’re doing better now

pornographic drawings
of all these things you made
out of desperation
i think they’ve long lost their composure
god i hope they get some closure soon

oh god tell me not to text you
oh god cuz i fucking want to
oh god tell me not to text you
oh god cuz i fucking love you

laying there asleep while i’m awake
have another dream on the bus to new york

i wanna talk for a while
i wanna cry i wanna smile
i wanna unleash all my deepest darkest fears
in your general direction
an emotional collection
of all the things we loved and hated in ourselves

i didn’t know you then
it’ll be better as friends
we won’t be clouded,
we won’t be clouded in our judgment

i sent my last text as 4:01
should i send you another or are you done?
i don’t want to seem desperate
oh god i’m fucking desperate

god i’m gonna lose control soon
my eyes are bulging out my head
stuck in a vacuum

empty words of love and comfort
in my head and round my soul
in my body i’m there with you
without you i’m nothing new

fuck i want a hug or maybe a kiss
this sexual affection is bringing me down
our bodies are nice
but i prefer your mind
or maybe your words
or really your soul

laying there asleep while you’re awake
have another dream to cope with your feelings

god i hate dreaming
take me back to real life
no wait put me back
god i hate dreaming
take me back to real life
no put me back in

i won’t give up
if you’re not gonna give up
you won’t give up
if i’m not gonna give up
i won’t give up
i’m not gonna giv up
i won’t give up
i’m not gonna give up now

i burnt your letter written out of love
i got no catharsis
no angels
from above
i wish it didn’t have to be like this
broken promises
texts all screaming fits

but when it all comes down it
i’ll fall for you once again
cuz when it all comes down to it
i always want to be only a friend

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